Good Morning Miss Undercover Chapter 8

Even without guessing I knew what was the reaction of those two inside the car. As expected. The car, as if it was affected by its owner’s anger, swiftly left with a sneer. I glanced at the car in distance. With a smiling face, I turned my attention to the neon billboard.

There was a strange feeling inside my heart. I was unable to get rid of this emotion. Hence, I concentrated on the words shining on billboard. However,, I have anxiously discovered, that I have already lost the mood to read.

An ear-piercing sound of the brake. The Audi car drove ten meters away from me, then it halted. The car door suddenly opened. A gloomy-faced Fu Chen stepped out. He angrily ripped off his tie as he was walking toward me.

Immediately, Wei Yi also opened the door and came out. She snapped, “Fu Chen, come back! Did you hear me? Come back!!”

Wei Yi wanted to follow him, but Fu Chen turned around and chided her, “Don’t follow me.”

Wei Yi was a little sheep, after all. She unwillingly stayed at her original place and stamped her feet. With a glowing eyes, she looked at this side, with an expression of a wronged little bride.

I frowned. Seeing Fu Chen’s cloudy face, I pretended that I saw nothing. I turned my eyes away, not looking at him.

Fu Chen has once said that I was that wild wind. When forest fire was approaching, I would always ignorantly fan the flame. Fearing nothing in Heaven or Earth. It simply drove people to their death.

Maybe my nonchalant expression made Fu Chen’s rage burn even more. The gentle smile he flashed at me has dissapeared. There was only anger left. I was surprised. Someone as steady as him has never got so mad before. He was like a different person.

His hands clutched my shoulders. The eyes under his glasses were pitch-black and shining. He yelled at me, “Fang Liang Liang, do you know what you’re doing? What do you want? I ask you, what do you want? Do you know how much I suffer? Do you?”

I shoot a glance at his hand and chuckled, “Doctor Fu is so full of himself. You’re going to be my dear brother-in-law very soon. Why mention suffering? It brings bad luck.”

Something flashed inside his eyes. If my eyesight wasn’t failing me, that thing was called pain.

Knowing that he was also hurting, I smiled even more dazzlingly. Yet, my body was slightly trembling.

His hands were firmly pressed on my shoulders, his strength frightening. Yet, he still didn’t let go of his hold. He was practically mumbling, “Why do you have such personality? Why do you have such temper? Why did we come to this point? Why didn’t you give me any explanation at that time? I wanted only your explanation, nothing more. Why did you make yourself look like a bad person? You are obviously not such person.”

Doctor Fu who was always extremely knowledgeable for the first time ever asked so many whys. I assume he hasn’t read properly the book 《Childrend´s hundred thousand  whys¹》[1]  in his childhood. I calmly stared at him, telling myself, you’re so stupid it makes me sad.

Despair and helplessness dominated his emotion. This Fu Chen wasn’t the refined and gentle doctor Fu I knew. He more resembled the grassland’s lion that went on berserk.

I silently looked at him, letting him to violently shake me. I stubbornly bit my lips, refusing to speak.

“That damn job is really that important? When you were acting recklessly because of others, have you thought about me? Behaving yourself is so difficult for you? As long as you spoke out, I would have supported you for the rest of your life……..Fang Liang Liang, look at me! I want you to look at me!”

Despite that he snarled in my ears, someone as rebellious as me still stubbornly moved eyesight like before.

I was afraid of seeing those suffering eyes. They were silently reminding me how determined and heartless I was when I pushed him away and we have come to the point beyond redemption.

Fei Ge was right. I was to blame for dumping a good man. I was a masochist. I was bringing suffering to myself and also others. Whoever fell in love with me must have had an eighth lifetime of misfortune. He was doomed to live a pandemonium life.

Even as good man as Fu Chen was frustrated by me and walked away. Would there still be anyone who would fall in love with me?

While my heart was sinking, I heard myself talking with a dry voice, calmly yet sad, “I didn’t give you any explanation because I thought you could understand. But it seems I was wrong. Two months ago old Sun was diagnosed with cancer and died. He worked as a spy his whole life. He was also called a spineless coward for his whole life by his son and wife. Only before dying did they discover that he had done so many spectacular deeds.”

I slowly turned my head and looked sadly into his eyes. “Once things starts, it’s hard to stop them. Even though I knew I was going to lose a lot, I still couldn’t help myself. I’m sorry, Fu Chen. I will never become the woman you want.”

The pain burried inside Fu Chen’s eyes seeped out. Drop by drop, they penetrated into my heart.

I gave myself a self-deprecating smile. The corners of my eyes were a little warm. “Me and you like this is how it should be.  As a doctor you are already very exhausted. If you had to worry about me, you’ll shorten your life by several years. Wei Yi is more well-behaved than me. Perhaps, you are destinated to only be my younger sister’s husband.”

Fu Chen dejectedly lowered his hands. His expression was fierce as well as sad, “Fang Liang Liang, you’re the most hard-hearted woman I have ever seen.”

I was taken aback, then I smiled bleakly, “You should be glad that you have discovered it so early.”

Fu Chen’s face became disheartened.

In the distance, a silver Mercedes-Benz that speedily came over, stopped. Kang Zi Xian came out. He thoughtfully looked at motionless me and Fu Chen.

I slightly lowered my head, “The one I was waiting for came, goodbye.”

We brushed past each other, walking away. At this time, he suddenly pulled my hand. Fu Chen glanced at Kang Zi Xian who was few meters away. He moved his mouth, like every time in the past years when we had to part, leaving tender instructions. His voice lost its furiousness. It was now low. Yet, it struck a chord deep inside my heart.

“Promise me to properly protect yourself.”

Without waiting for my reply, he walked away with heavy steps. Taking Wei Yi, he left abruptly. Moving farther and farther away. His departion actually made me feel cruel and lonely.

It started to drizzle. My hands slowly moved upward, finally covering my face. I began to softly cry in silence.

However, only two drops of tear have fallen down. At this time, even the time for paying homage to lost love would seem luxurious. In such emergency situation, the most important thing was to rescue Dongzi from that Deng guy. I adjusted my mood and resolutely wiped away my tears. I turned around to look at Kang Zi Xian.

When turning around, I carelessly bumped into a very hard chest. Startled, I looked up. Kang Zi Xian looked at me with an expresionless face. His dark eyes were very pretty. Yet, they were trying to analyzing me. They carried no warmth.

Tear stains haven’t dried out. I could only move a step back and force myself to smile, “Don’t get me wrong. You got too close and I’m not interested into throwing myself at people.”

He remained silent, yet without realizing he made people feel pressured.

He wasn’t an easy-going man.

“Let’s go.” I passed him and went to his car.  I was calling Dongzi’s phone while walking. It was still turned off.

“Miss Fang, it seems that you’re a person with quite a story.” Behind me, he said softly.

Translator’s notes: 

[1] Childrend´s hundred thousand whys is a Chinese book specially compiled for pre-school children. It features the topics that children are interested in and explains them in simple language